Ranting

so.. the last time I blogged was during 2 October? So some of you may be wondering where I have gone again this time. I used to promise myself that no matter how busy I am, I would take the time to at least bake something every 2 weeks. But now, I found it so impossible to do so. Not because I m too busy during Sundays but due to the reason that I m too tired, both mentally and physically.

Work quantity is insane, not crazy but insane! The amount of workload is killing me slowly and really stressing me out. Fellow colleagues told me that I lost a lot of weight. I wonder how I could be losing weight when I am not even on diet. Probably due to stress?

I try to reduce my stress level by working my butt off and do overtime as much as I possibly could. It’s racing against time everyday for me. But i found it hard to get up early in the morning if I worked till late the day before. I feel too tired. I think I am becoming more and more “no life”. I found that I do not even have time to socialise anymore. too tired to even go out at night. . >.<>

Even if I m at home in the evening, sitting in front of my pc, I am at a lost at what to do. Should I use my precious few hours to watch anime? Read manga? Surf? Find more things to download? Or should I just go play my DS? I usually can’t decide and would waste the precious night away doing meaningless thing. I have countless episodes of anime waiting for me to catch up, gigs of manga waiting for me to read.. but my heart is just not in it.

During Sunday, I would try to sleep in but I normally end up waking at 9 a.m. Then, I will spend my precious Sunday doing some reading. I don’t like to read so much if there is work the next day as I am usually so intense in my reading that I forgot the time. And I will end up being late at work again.

GAH!!! I am so tired!!!! Mentally tired!!! I want a LONG break!! But if I take a long break, I will go back to the office crying at the possible mountains of task on my table.

Don't mind me.. just ranting here . Sob